DISQUS

Peter · 3 months ago

Hi Nicholas
Sorry to hear of your troubles.I have also been in a mental hospital just over 6 weeks i spent there after i had my epiphany.Funny how someones breakthrough is seen as a breakdown, guess the system is set up that way.Anyway as soon as my bank paypal stuff is up and running again i will get some cash sent to you my friend.Have missed your articles wrtings musings and views,,I often go back and reread some of them and always get further insight.I send you love and intention take care and you will hear from me soon.I just know someone like you will not be down for long.
Peter Angel

jack5115 · 3 months ago

Spiritual enlightenment doesnt, in turn, help anyone who attains it. I hate this fact, and i am tired of it. I am quite enlightened myself, thanks to Vipassna practice, but im getting bored of this unfairness in level of material wealth issue.

Why those who are greedy and live only for a secular life can be happy and have all the comfort, while we spiritual people are doomed to live in agony!!!

TLS · 3 months ago

Welcome back to real life. I'm glad you're not doing great, though I hope it works out for you.

I was reintroduced to "real life" circa three weeks ago too, going back to school after a year of finding/deluding myself.

nicholaspowiull · 3 months ago

Thank you all for all the fantastic support! I did manage to find a place to live with someone who can benefit with me being there too and the means travel down there! :) I am really grateful to know such fantastic people with big hearts and so eager to help. I will never forget every single one of you who offered to help in one or another, you are all greatly needed in this world at this time and if there is anything you ever need from me, please do not hesitate to ask! Florida here I come...

jack5115 · 3 months ago

I feel, of course, sorry for you. But I have been being curious for long time ago about this issue. You see, material wealth is a foundation for spiritual pursuit, and if a person was left to fight against this material world all alone without mercy from the Source or from God, or whatever, how could he/she keeps his faith.
How old are you now? How much is your savings? I am Thai, living in Thailand now, with a low income and no car nor house of my own, I live in frustration everyday. You may asked me ‘how can you say you’re enlightened?, since in your belief system, enlightened one shouldn’t be whining about agony, he or she must be happy everywhere and every time. Well I don’t think so. Enlightening awareness is one thing, survival is another. You’ve got to be responsible for yourself, or else you would be just like a poor monk who claim to be ‘noble’ yet begging for the food from the ‘lower-mind’ beings of survive.

What is the use for being enlightened then, if you have to be shamefully live in material world?


PS. Congratulation anyway!

nicholaspowiull · 3 months ago

I am 27 years old, I don't have a bank account or saving account.
I don't have any believe system as to what enlightenment is. I can only speak about the concept or label of it based on what wasseen here. What was seen here is that there is nobody there to be enlighted. Enlightenment doesn't fit into a box because it is everything as one thing. So if whining arises then that is this one thing too. Nothing is not it. Enlightenment doesn't answer anything because it is everything. If anything, enlightenment here is about not having any questions answered, it's about living in the mystery. No explaination can solve this or explain it because it's too paradoxal, the mind can't choose. The mind wants to split things up and choose an opposite, but underneath that, there is a perfection that is always there, I can't understand why a child starving to death could be part of that perfection or any other thing the mind can think of but perfection is seen here under the mind. In my expereince everything always works out in perfection even if it's not seen how that outcome was perfect.

suzannefoxton · 3 months ago

Thanks for keeping the worried distant informed at last! You will be fine, you will be fine; in fact, you are perfect, sweet Nicholas. Even in the story, common sense dictates that we can never know how things will turn out, and are constantly surprised by a painful episode that seems to evolve into the best thing that ever happened "to us".

Watch out - I've been interviewed for the Urban Guru Cafe! I must really be enlightened, Man.

nicholaspowiull · 3 months ago

Too bad they didn't have the internet while in the mental hospital to keep everyone informed.

I was just speaking about that exact thing last night, how there is an evolving of this one thing and it always evolves aligned with perfection because it can't be imperfect, it can only look imperfect to the mind, which is perfect.

Hahaha, you enlightened one! Maybe they will make a religion out of one day, hehehehe

suzannefoxton · 3 months ago

I have such fond memories of my six weeks or so in a mental hospital (depression, etc.). It's such a privilege - or certainly feels like one - to be that vulnerable, and to witness others in their deeply human flawed yet beautiful states. And I love that whole conceptual area, life unfolding perfectly NO MATTER WHAT. No matter that the frenzied mind thinks it's horrible and skewed, the mind thinking such things is perfect too. It cannot be gotten wrong. It cannot be gotten right. It cannot be gotten at all!

Nicholas, so glad you are back and if you lived nearby, I would definitely mother you a bit.

nicholaspowiull · 3 months ago

You're too sweet Suzanne *Hugs*

Suzanne · 2 months ago

My podcast is up on the Urban Guru Cafe if you're curious as to what the mind/body thingy (apparently) sounds like!

How are you getting along? Have anywhere to stay semi-permanently yet?

nicholaspowiull · 2 months ago

You have a very lovely smooth voice. *smile* Thank you for sharing indeed. Beautiful words of pointing. I will share it on facebook and twitter.

Yes indeed, I am living in Florida. Very beautiful here and living with "consciously awake people". They said I can stay as long as I desire.

Funny how life always takes care of itself.

suzannefoxton · 2 months ago

Glad your story is unfolding a bit more smoothly! But oh dear...I hope the "consciously awake people" are not too annoying!

Lune · 2 months ago

Hi Nicholas,

just a quick thank you for your link to my article on FB. I have been reading your blog for a while now (courtesy of link from Suzanne) but have only just worked out how to post a comment ;)

Sounds like things are becoming more bearable at last and as you say, life works itself out - the only way it knows how - of course.

take care,
Lune x x

nicholaspowiull · 2 months ago

Thank you for stopping by and commenting Lune. I also found you through Suzanne's links.

Indeed life lives itself.